Exciting Opportunities vs Difficult Situations
In spite of some exciting opportunities and some good time with family, I’ve felt sad and stressed, because of other equally difficult situations. Sometimes, no matter how good the good things are, the bad things just won’t go away.
Are You Feeling Happy Now?
Last night, my nephew asked me, “Are you feeling happy now?” He had been listening to the adult conversations. I told him, “Not yet.”
Trying to Make My Heart Happy
Today, there was some resolution to some difficult situations. For that, I was grateful and a little less overwhelmed by stress. But, I still felt so much heaviness, so much sadness, like an overwhelming fatigue.
Maybe If I Make Something In Stained Glass …
I wanted to find something to bring me back to level. I wanted to do something that brings me happiness in order to bring myself back to feeling happy.
Looking Through The Colored Glass
So, I looked at some of the glass I have on the shelf (waiting to be turned into something). I looked at one piece, then another, then another. I decided to take a stack of 12″ x 12″ squares of glass to show the children. They’ve been drawing designs for me, ideas for projects.
I Decided to See If I could Make A Nightlight
I really, really, really wanted to do something that felt good to me, something that would give me a sense of satisfaction. To quote myself, from a quote in my quotes section on the right sidebar, “Creating something is almost always my best solution for finding the good in a bad situation.”
I really do feel that way. Doing something with words or color or sound, ideas or images or some kind of form, just makes me feel better. It helps me find that part of myself that I lose when my life becomes too busy and too energized by negative stress.
I Chose Red Granite Glass and Two Bevels
I wanted to do something easy, something really easy that would not take too long. I just wanted to do something I could start and finish in a short time. I wanted the spark and the joy that come from creating something.
There was very little to do. I marked a pattern on the smooth side of the red granite glass, and scored and broke the glass. I lightly ground the edges of the red piece of cut glass, and wrapped the edges of the two bevels and the red glass with copper foil. I soldered the three pieces together, with the red glass between the two bevels, and rounded the outer edges with solder. I soldered the little metal band to the glass, the band that holds the glass onto the nightlight. Then, I cleaned the glass and the soldered edges to remove the flux. Finally, I secured the metal band around the base of the night light and adjusted the glass to be directly in front of the bulb. The entire process took about an hour and a half.
It Didn’t bring Me To The Top Of The Mountain, But It Brought Me Up
I felt that small stirring inside that bounces around and builds until it creates joy. I’m not back to the joy place yet. I’m still feeling exhausted from having too much going on in my life for too long. (I am a much-too-busy person.) But, I could feel some of that good feeling, and I could smile. These are steps in the right direction.
This is my first nightlight. I’m telling myself it’s just a test.
The bevels are scratched, because the cats knocked them off the table and they hit the concrete floor (prior to my using them today). And, I’m trying to determine the best size and shape to use for nightlights. But, I did something that gives me happiness. I took a step. I did what I’ve not believed I had time for since mid-summer.
Here are two photos of the night light (glass front) I made this evening. It looks prettier in real life, but this will give an idea of how it looks.
It Is Important To Find (And Do) What Makes You Happy
So much of what I do is motivated by having to be an adult (because I am one). I am an adult, so I must be responsible and work hard and take care of myself. Sometimes, too often, I put off doing the things that are lifegiving. For me, creating something, anything, breathes life into me, heals me, and helps me find rest when I am exhausted. It helps me find a spark of the joy that is so easy to lose when I’m feeling overwhelmed by events in my life. Creating something helps me make my heart happy.